Ok, so I haven't checked this in forever but, a lot has happened.
I gained weight. lol But I'm losing it.
I got a haircut and highlights.
I got new clothes.
I had my very first Monster.
I have a new favoite song, called Monster by Meg & Dia.
Patrick visited me.
I know the last one sounds weird but, yeah. I saw him, I swear. He was right in front of me, but when I went to touch him, he vanished. I felt a great deal of comfort after that. I felt renewed. I feel new.

Ok, so I haven't checked this in forever but, a lot has happened.
I gained weight. lol But I'm losing it.
I got a haircut and highlights.
I got new clothes.
I had my very first Monster.
I have a new favoite song, called Monster by Meg & Dia.
Patrick visited me.
I know the last one sounds weird but, yeah. I saw him, I swear. He was right in front of me, but when I went to touch him, he vanished. I felt a great deal of comfort after that. I felt renewed. I feel new.

Patrick died on Saturday. A drunk driver hit him head on. Words can not express how sad I am.

I've been gone for a while so let me tell you what happened. I went to my friends party and some people were drinking, there were rumors that a 24 year old guy snuck in and was was trying to "get some" and paying some girls to quench his undying thirst. I was wearing a mini skirt and he saw me. No matter how much money he offered I told him I was staying a virgin until I'm married. It was then when he must have hit me over the head or something because I woke up to him inside of me. Needless to say, I was raped. A friend drove me home and called the cops. I was so scared that my mom took me to a rehabilitation center for women who were raped. I'm fine now and Patrick is really supportive. But I think I may be pregnant. I've been throwing up and just all of the signs of pregnancy. I don't know what to do. My mom said when I'm ready she'll buy me a test thing.

♥ Jaeda



UPDATE:I took a pregnancy test. Praise God I'm not pregnant! My mom and I cried for like two hours out of joy and thankfulness. Thank you God and thank you all for your prayers!

I decided not to go to the party. I don't want to break any laws.

This is what I wore to school today. I got a solo in choir for You'll Be In My Heart.