WARNING: I use really bad language in this C-blog, if you're offended easily don't read it!!!! [it's still PG-13]. Now you guys can't complain, I warned you... Hey guys, I'd like to start by apologizing for not c-blogging the events, Mydrobe won't let me access my events page, and hasn't been for a while. I promise I'll blog all the outfits y'all voted on as soon it lets me! Right now, my heart is really full, and I thought I'd write about it, and see if y'all listen... So I'm 16, and got my first kiss last night...yes, I guess I am kind of a late bloomer, whatever. Anyway, the boy it was with, his name is John. I really like him, and I have, for a while. There's a problem though--he's my best friend Caroline's ex. Well, sort of my best friend...I've known her since first grade, we still call eachother best friends, but we hardly feel that way anymore. I know both of them from church...she pisses me off all the time, she is SO fucking boy crazy! Well freshman year she went out with John for about a year [we're juniors now, he's a senior]. he dumped her. She was upset for a while, but has had 4 boyfriends since then! She SWEARS she is over him. She can't stand him. I like him. He's a little weird admittedly: he's white but has dreadlocks, he's bisexual, and he doesn't do great in school. But he's actually really hot when he has a hat on and he has a GREAT body. But I like him because when I'm around him I'm happy and he's so sweet and chill and fun. I'd never told anyone from church that I liked him... well I went on this church retreat this weekend, and they were both there. We flirted a lot, as usual, and even may have cuddled some...we hung out with each other all weekend. well this church retreat is about two hours away from where we all live and consists of 6000 youth and 4 sessions from Friday to Sunday. in between the two saturday sessions, our church went to a mall to kill time. Me and about 5 of my girl friends started going to some stores [I bought some hardcore hairdye from Hot Topic and I can't WAIT to use it] and at some point John found us and hung out with us and talking to me a lot...we went in to Charlotte Russe because Caroline decided she needed a new outfit, because she had a date on Monday. She can't stand John, and every time she even saw him she would say really loudly "WHY ARE YOU IN HERE??? THIS IS A GIRLS CLOTHING STORE?" "WHY ARE YOU HERE?" "WHY ARE YOU HERE?" you get the idea. well later Me and Caroline and this boy named Matt [One of John's best friends] were all just sitting down and talking in the food court. She was telling Matt about Charlotte Russe, and said "I kept asking him 'why are you here' over and over again!" she thought it was hilarious. Matt just said "why was he there? Duh, he likes Kelly." Considering Caroline was there, it was quite awkward, so I tried to change the subject and started to talk about my hair dye. Caroline kept asking Matt "really? he likes her?" and Matt was just like "You seriously didn't know that? really?" and Caroline was like "he really likes her? like he told you that?" and Matt said "yeah...but don't tell him I told you anything..." and I was kind of happy, but kind of thinking "WHY THE HELL DID YOU SAY THAT IN FRONT OF CAROLINE???" anyway so I talked to Matt later, and he told me that John really did like me... well this was Saturday night, and at about 11 PM I called my best friend Gaby in the lobby of the hotel and talked a little bit to her...after I got off the phone guess who was there in the lobby? John. well he came and sat down next to me...we started to talk...he started to hold my hand...we were out there a couple of hours...at first we were alone [minus the front desk attendant, and a little chaperon meeting from other youth groups-weird?] then about 5 other guys from our youth group [including his little brother-again, weird?] came out...including this one really obnoxious guy named Urie. He started coming up to us and saying things like "aw, I'm sorry, I don't want to interrupt this moment," or "oh, I just wish I had a camera, this is so cute." But John didn't stop holding my hand...eventually I said "I really like you." and he was like "wow this is weird with my little brother here" and whispered in my ear "I really like you too." We both agreed that we wouldn't tell that many kids at church about it, because of all the drama that it would cause and Caroline and stuff, which is exactly what I wanted. and I looked at my phone and realized it was 12:45 AM...I finally say "I don't want to leave...but it's almost 1 am...I've still gotta shower and then wake up at 7:30..." and he says "yeah, I guess we all ought to go back to our rooms." So the 6ish of us walk down the hall, my room is first, so when we get to my room he hangs back and we hug. after a while he says "Oh my god." and kisses me. I wasn't expecting it all, although I suppose I should have been. I'm happy that he kissed me and all, but honestly, it was kind of...bad. It was too high, he almost completely missed my mouth. And it was only about a second long. and it was really...wet. I mean, I wasn't expecting it, my mouth was closed, and it was so short, way too short to be that wet. But I like him, so I'm happy... Anyway now he has my number and he said he would call me to do something. He just sent me a really sweet message on FB... He closed it with "I can't wait until I see your beautiful brown eyes again." yeahh...so it's good :) but the problem is that I haven't told anyone from church, I don't know how to. I asked Caroline's permission before I did anything, so I'm not some backstabber! But she can't stand him, and my 2 other best friends Amy&Laura don't understand...all I've told Laura is that I'm interested in him. I haven't told her about the kiss, I haven't told Amy ANYTHING! Oh, and my parents hate him. They don't understand him at all, and won't make an effort to. I haven't told my parents anything either, they don't even know that I like him. So when we go out, that will be a shock for them. sorry this is so long, if anyone actually read the whole thing, thank you so much <3 <3 <3

My first kiss...

1/1/1900 12:00:00 AM

movie plans fell through, but I wore this to go shopping. This was forever ago and I'm just now getting around to c-blogging it, sorry. I drove (one of the first times by myself!) to Target, to REI, and the bank. got my brother his birthday present...Climbing chalk! yay, that's pretty excitingg. also bought birthday presents for a couple of other people. I got Melisa really cute polka dot flats. Also got my friend Amy some men's boxers and some scandilous thongs. haha, hers is a gag gift. we have a joke about boxers...and as for the thongs, that's always funny! thanks pickmyoutfit, this outfit was good for the shopping I did, it was a little hot, but then again you made me the outfit for a freezing movie theatre. this beater is getting really shorttt. I think it might be time for the burn pile...oh, and how amazing does my leg muscle look here? yeahhh

Around Town (pickmyoutfit)

7/6/2007 9:00:00 AM